All the Novellas and Criminal Minds I’ve been watching are taking their toll. I had a nightmare last night involving Mexican gangstas. They kidnapped my Lu! Goddamn jerky bastards!
That was the Monk’s father’s favorite curse. That and motherfuckin’ son of a lesbian bitch,
have a certain twisted ring to them that I find useful and horrifying.
Both so insulting on so many levels.

Anyway. I find it fascinating that Criminal Minds is on television at any hour of the day. It’s a horrific show about FBI profilers that you Tearful, would hate but that I find compelling even though it’s giving me nightmares and making me miss all the armaments normally available to me.

Sometimes I’m just not right.

but I don’t judge.

at least not too harshly.

The guilt over leaving my Mom is settling in along with the crazy joy I feel about going home.
This is the hell of it, it all moves into my heart and there ain’t nothing for it.

one more night.

From Drop Box

Happy Valentine’s Day!
We’ll have to celebrate on Thursday through
June. k?

It’s been quite a day, just got back from Orlando. That endless drive…
nothing but swamp and brown palm trees. I think elephants would be a fine
addition to this landscape.

I hadn’t seen the ghost since I got here but I felt it last night. Maybe she
just stops in to say good bye?

two more nights…

From Drop Box

con todo mi corazon.

Happy Valentine’s Day!
We’ll have to celebrate on Thursday through
June. k?

It’s been quite a day, just got back from Orlando. That endless drive…
nothing but swamp and brown palm trees. I think elephants would be a fine
addition to this landscape.

I hadn’t seen the ghost since I got here but I felt it last night. Maybe she
just stops in to say good bye?

two more nights…

From Drop Box

con todo mi corazon.

it’s so quiet here this morning. I love that.

and beautiful! I think we’ll go to the beach for a short stroll.

this beach where we walked endless hours with our screaming wild woman.
remember those days Scott? The lounge “chairs” we’d carve out of the sand?
That was just before the wild woman made her entrance and I was a beached whale.
that house we lived in is gone, so is the bar. Not a trace of it left.

A big wave out to you Miss A who so kindly stopped to visit my beasties yesterday ;0)

three more nights!

From Drop Box

it’s so quiet here this morning. I love that.

and beautiful! I think we’ll go to the beach for a short stroll.

this beach where we walked endless hours with our screaming wild woman.
remember those days Scott? The lounge “chairs” we’d carve out of the sand?
That was just before the wild woman made her entrance and I was a beached whale.
that house we lived in is gone, so is the bar. Not a trace of it left.

A big wave out to you Miss A who so kindly stopped to visit my beasties yesterday ;0)

three more nights!

From Drop Box

I think it may be time to go on home.

I’m ready!

Today we went to the farmer’s market and bought beets so my Mom can make juice.

On the menu this evening is Butternut squash and black bean chili. Yum.

We visited with my uncle and his wife this afternoon. Sad sad. She’s in the advanced
stages of MS and he is her caretaker which is completely horrifying since his grasp on this world is tenuous but he did show me all his instruments which he has been making for years, guitars, mandolins, violins, quatros and harps, none of which he has ever learned to play.

They are beautiful things.

Now I am going to lay on The Bemer, a German contraption my cousin sells. Sound like snake oil to me but you never can tell.

Here’s another collage, I think I’ve made about fifty of them, a new addiction!

From Drop Box

I think it may be time to go on home.

I’m ready!

Today we went to the farmer’s market and bought beets so my Mom can make juice.

On the menu this evening is Butternut squash and black bean chili. Yum.

We visited with my uncle and his wife this afternoon. Sad sad. She’s in the advanced
stages of MS and he is her caretaker which is completely horrifying since his grasp on this world is tenuous but he did show me all his instruments which he has been making for years, guitars, mandolins, violins, quatros and harps, none of which he has ever learned to play.

They are beautiful things.

Now I am going to lay on The Bemer, a German contraption my cousin sells. Sound like snake oil to me but you never can tell.

Here’s another collage, I think I’ve made about fifty of them, a new addiction!

From Drop Box

It’s count down time.

Mixed feelings.

I can’t wait to get home but when I think about leaving…
my tiny heart feels like it might crack in two.
and I’m going to miss the ending of Eva Luna. Will that evil woman who
always wears the one glove get her comeuppance? and why the one glove?

I made vegan cinnamon buns yesterday. Of course I tweaked the recipe and of course they
taste like cinnamon flavored bricks but the day was perfect for spending in the kitchen. I also made lentil enchiladas. My poor Mom! I took pity and added cheese to hers. What a trooper! She’ll eat whatever dreadful thing I put in front of her with gratitude.

I’ve been playing with brushes on this little pad and learning all kinds of fun things. Here’s
one I call Deer Modigliani

From Drop Box

It’s count down time.

Mixed feelings.

I can’t wait to get home but when I think about leaving…
my tiny heart feels like it might crack in two.
and I’m going to miss the ending of Eva Luna. Will that evil woman who
always wears the one glove get her comeuppance? and why the one glove?

I made vegan cinnamon buns yesterday. Of course I tweaked the recipe and of course they
taste like cinnamon flavored bricks but the day was perfect for spending in the kitchen. I also made lentil enchiladas. My poor Mom! I took pity and added cheese to hers. What a trooper! She’ll eat whatever dreadful thing I put in front of her with gratitude.

I’ve been playing with brushes on this little pad and learning all kinds of fun things. Here’s
one I call Deer Modigliani

From Drop Box

It finally rained. Hard. No thunder though.My Mom had her surgery and all went well. She’s been wobbly butresting and healing nicely though she does look like she’s been beaten with a stick.I’m an incompetent nurse, I misplace her meds andpanic ( on the inside) when I think I might accidentally hurt her but she doesn’t mind,I sit and watch her novellas and she fills me in on the back story. Such evil women, bouncing ample boobage around in Fredric’s of Hollywood dresses. She told me about finding empty church offering envelopes under my mattress when I was a kid and I told her how My friend Louise and I would go to the Diner for breakfast instead of church. I don’t remember stashing the envelopes and wonder why I didn’t just toss them.So that’s how I roll.I dreamt I was kissing Lu on the lips.

From Drop Box

because…….just look at that face!

It finally rained. Hard. No thunder though.My Mom had her surgery and all went well. She’s been wobbly butresting and healing nicely though she does look like she’s been beaten with a stick.I’m an incompetent nurse, I misplace her meds andpanic ( on the inside) when I think I might accidentally hurt her but she doesn’t mind,I sit and watch her novellas and she fills me in on the back story. Such evil women, bouncing ample boobage around in Fredric’s of Hollywood dresses. She told me about finding empty church offering envelopes under my mattress when I was a kid and I told her how My friend Louise and I would go to the Diner for breakfast instead of church. I don’t remember stashing the envelopes and wonder why I didn’t just toss them.So that’s how I roll.I dreamt I was kissing Lu on the lips.

From Drop Box

because…….just look at that face!

It finally rained. Hard. No thunder though. My Mom had her surgery and all went well. She’s been wobbly but resting and healing nicely though she does look like she’s been beaten with a stick. I’m an incompetent nurse, I misplace her meds and panic ( on the inside) when I think I might accidentally hurt her but she doesn’t mind, I sit and watch her novellas and she fills me in on the back story. Such evil women, bouncing ample boobage around in Fredric’s of Hollywood dresses. She told me about finding empty church offering envelopes under my mattress when I was a kid and I told her how My friend Louise and I would go to the Diner for breakfast instead of church. I don’t remember stashing the envelopes and wonder why I didn’t just toss them. So that’s how I roll. I dreamt I was kissing Lu on the lips.

From Drop Box

because……. just look at that face!

I’ve had a headache since I got here. I’m more than a little sick of it.today we went to a thai restaurant that my phone assured me was excellent. it wasn’t that exactly but they did have barbies dressed in Thai costumes and my mom pulled up her shirt to show me how beautiful her bypass scar is. after that we went to get the car washed and she suddenly got r e a l s l o w. like a doll winding down. she was holding a half eaten candy in one hand and 17 dollar bills in the other and she closed her eyes and fell asleep just like that. that was it for our outing.it’s beautiful here today. big puffy clouds and a nice breeze, there’s been talk of rain but not a drop has fallen since I’ve been here.

From Drop Box

I’ve had a headache since I got here. I’m more than a little sick of it.today we went to a thai restaurant that my phone assured me was excellent. it wasn’t that exactly but they did have barbies dressed in Thai costumes and my mom pulled up her shirt to show me how beautiful her bypass scar is. after that we went to get the car washed and she suddenly got r e a l s l o w. like a doll winding down. she was holding a half eaten candy in one hand and 17 dollar bills in the other and she closed her eyes and fell asleep just like that. that was it for our outing.it’s beautiful here today. big puffy clouds and a nice breeze, there’s been talk of rain but not a drop has fallen since I’ve been here.

From Drop Box

I’ve had a headache since I got here. I’m more than a little sick of it. today we went to a thai restaurant that my phone assured me was excellent. it wasn’t that exactly but they did have barbies dressed in Thai costumes and my mom pulled up her shirt to show me how beautiful her bypass scar is. after that we went to get the car washed and she suddenly got r e a l s l o w. like a doll winding down. she was holding a half eaten candy in one hand and 17 dollar bills in the other and she closed her eyes and fell asleep just like that. that was it for our outing. it’s beautiful here today. big puffy clouds and a nice breeze, there’s been talk of rain but not a drop has fallen since I’ve been here.

From Drop Box